I never thought I would say this, but I believe the ECT treatments are helping. I'm out of my depressive slump. No more dark and dreary thoughts. My world is bright and shiny again.
I've had five treatments and according to my doctors I am progressing faster than normal. From what I understand, it would take twice as many treatments to reach the status I have.
I always was an over achiever.
I'm not one to approach anything half way. It's all or nothing.
I wasn't sure what to expect when I received my first ECT treatment. Memory loss was a real possibility. However, all that I've experienced are some doozy of headaches. I spoke with my psychiatrist today and we agreed, if that's all I ever encounter, then I should count myself lucky and fortunate.
If you've never suffered from depression, you should count yourself fortunate and very lucky. Many people can control their depression with medication. Unfortunately, that's been difficult for me. My depression has persisted despite all of my doctors' good intentions.
I spent ten days in the hospital this time.
I feel bad for my husband and family, because they have to pick up the pieces when I go into the hospital. It's not like I can predict when it's going to happen, either. By the time my doctor decides that it's time to go into the hospital, my world has cracked, big time.
Hopefully, now that I've had ECT treatments, that won't be a problem anymore.
I'll keep you posted.
Until then, stay positive.
Depression is the worst and I think its really hard for people who haven't suffered from it to understand the desperation it can cause. I am glad you are feeling better. Take care of yourself!!
ReplyDeleteI'm happy to hear that you're feeling better:)
ReplyDeleteLove,
Kelley
I'll be praying for you. I'd love to discuss your writing career sometime. My mom is trying to break into the arena, and I'd love to be able to chat to get idea's on agents and whether or not they're actually important...
ReplyDeleteI am sending so many happy thoughts and good wishes your way. And a bit of prayer.
ReplyDeleteI've never found anything that helps with my depression either. I'm proud of you for reaching out and getting help. I stink at that. Especially in my depression. I tend to isolate. Hide in my room. In my bed. I tend to wrap up in the blanket of depression and snuggle in. It takes so much effort to peek my head out and want to be better. I am so impressed you can do that when the world goes dark.
I hope it continues to work wonders and that your healing from this episode is swift. Thanks for sharing your story.
I hope your treatments are succesful - and while it's difficult to let someone else share the burden of caring for a household/family, it's part of your wellness strategy and your loved ones understand that :)
ReplyDeleteHappy SITS day! I don't suffer from depression but I know a lot of people who do and it is tough!
ReplyDeleteI hope your treatments are successful. Smile even though it's hard which I know is easier said than done!
Stopping by from SITS.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for writing so honestly about depression. So glad you've gotten the treatment you need and are feeling better.